This morning I had an Ophthalmologist appointment at 8:30. I had gone to this doctor 2 months ago because my Optometrist found some nerve damage to my eyes. We have determined that it is caused from the chemo. Well the doctor today said that he really couldn't tell any difference in 2 months so come back again in 4 more months. Honestly, I didn't say I needed to go back in 2 months, he did. Ok, so they dilated my eyes and did a few little tests and sent me home. It took nearly 6 hours for the dilation to go away. It seemed like a waste of time since he said he couldn't really see why I was there in only 2 months.
They told me to come home, wash my eyes out and lay down. I fell asleep for a little while and then my phone rang.
This was a guy from some company that said he needed to let me know that my doctor's office (the Oncologist) hadn't done what they should and so the shots that I am getting to build my blood wouldn't be covered. I was half asleep and didn't understand why in the world they were calling me. I told them I would call the doctor's office and see if I could get it straightened out. I called and they said that they had been trying to get in touch with this company and they should never have called me. She said she would take care of it and for me not to worry about it.
Then at 1:45 Barry and I had a doctor's appointment with our primary care doctor. She is so sweet. She came in and asked me how I was doing. I told her fine. She then went to the computer and pulled my records up and said that my liver functions were way too high. Not a good thing. Boom...I almost fell to the floor. The Oncologist had just given me the test last week on Thursday and read the test before I left his office. He never said anything about it, so I still assume that he knew what was going on and that it was fine. She also said that she would like me tested for
B-12 so that the neuropathy would go away. I'm for that.
I feel like it is so hard to go through this some days...like today. It just seemed like I either was at a doctor's office for nothing all day or had to deal with a company that I shouldn't have had to deal with today. It may seem petty to you, but it was just a hard day for me.
It seems like I was just being so thankful for everything Dr. Momin had told me and then Dr. A told me that the liver functions were way too high. It's like riding a roller coaster, which I have never liked.
Barry reminded me that the Lord had spoken to me months ago and told me that Numbers 23:19 says that God is not a man that he should lie. At that same time he told me that these are only numbers (the blood tests) and that I should believe that God can't lie and he is going to heal me. I do, but it sure knocked me for a loop.
Thank God for His wonderful Word. He is awesome and I am so thankful!
Thank God that I have people I can share these experiences with and know that they will pray for me.
I love you all and appreciate you and your prayers so very, very much!
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I can imagine that it is just a really hard journey - and so I continue to pray for you.
Hi Arlene, yes, you are having a tough journey, I'm glading you are holding on (to Him) real tight!
It seems lately I've been going to doctors or therapy almost every day also lately. Nothing with me is life threatening and I don't complain. But I can see how tiring all you are doing can be.
Just a lot of us wouldn't be around if it weren't for modern medicine. God has allowed man to be knowledgeable in these areas in our generation.
You are doing a large spurt of blogging too! Please don't over do yourself.
I'm praying for and with you guys always. Now I will check here a little more often.
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Oh Arlene.. that is way too sad!
It sure does not seem petty at all.
I just can't understand how you can take it so well and how Barry can be such a good help to you.
Neither one of you are complaining against God. You just keep relying on Him.
This is a good verse. I never knew that there was a verse in Numbers about God not lying.
There I have learnt something new on your site AGAIN, Arlene!
You two are just precious!...Love Terry
The healing process includes our spirit and soul. When we have had an intense time of trial of our faith, it takes it toll in the whole man. Jesus is the Great Physian of the whole man, spirit, soul and body. When we have these moments of feeling like we are on a roller coaster, our emotions are needing to be brought back into balance and stablized. He heals the emotions that are stressed. We just surrender our emotions over to Him and He takes hold of them and becomes the Lord over them. He becomes the master of the emotions, not the emotions mastering us. We maintain our peace that He gives. We accept His counsel to us from the Holy Spirit who is our Counselor. We are able to have His perspective concerning our humanity. We understand that He understands us and that all truly is well with our soul. It's His blood that was shed for us, that still flows today and still has power. The old hymn, There's power in the Blood, power in the Blood, of the Lamb. Oh, the precious Blood of Jesus, it protect, it cleanses, it has made a way for us to come boldly to the throne of grace, to obtain the grace and mercy we have need of. Our emotional rollercoaster rides do not move Him in anyway from being who He is and His heart desire and intent and purposes for us. He remains the same and continues the healing process. We simply come to realize more and more just how through He is in His healing us. Afer all He created us.
PS,
There are a lot of us who do not like rollercoaster rides. When we do find ourselves on one for whatever the reasons are, we seek peace and pursue after it, until peace is given once again. I pray that the peace of God that passes all understanding will guard your heart and mind as you bring all your cares and anxieties to Him, knowing He cares for you. Phillipians is a good book for you to read and meditate on. This book is Paul's most intimate, personal writings. A lot there to glean from.
Thank you so much Rebecca. I appreciate the prayers and am much better emotionally today.
Jim, thank you so much for all of the encouragement that you give to both of us. There are days when it is harder than others of course. Thank God we do live in this day and age of modern medicine, but He is ultimately still the Great Physician. Thank God for his precious promises.
Terry, I don't think that I gave the entire scripture verse. It is Numbers 23:19. Awesome verse. I am glad that you are able to glean anything from me. God is still good all of the time. You know Terry, neither of us feel like God has brought this upon me. We do believe it is the work of the devil. God healed everyone he came in contact with, so why would he make people sick, just to heal them? Doesn't make sense to me in my "black and white" mind. I certainly wish that this hadn't happened to me, but then I probably wouldn't have started blogging and met you....see there's always a bright rainbow if you just look for it!
Debra, you are so right that healing includes our spirit, soul and body. Thanks for reminding me that I need to get ahold of myself and start seeking that Peace that passes all understanding that I had in the beginning. I will read Philippians and meditate on it. I appreciate your words so very, very much. Love ya!
Many years ago I heard a a preacher speak on Titus 1:2 - in a nutshell it says that God Does not lie. The devil is a liar and his lies cause doubt and fear....your army of prayers warriors and stomping on his head...our God DOES NOT LIE - by his stripes!!!
Pat, thank you for reminding how many prayer warriors I DO have. You are right, BY HIS STRIPES!!!
I know you will be healed!! We'll just keep praying for more wisdom for the doctors
Thanks Margie for the all of the prayers you have prayed and the encouragement you have been to us. You will never, ever know what it means. BY HIS STRIPES!!!!
Arlene....keep holding on to HIM.....for strength and courage and healing...
sorry I havent been by in a while....but please know you are in my thoughts and prayers....
hugs
donna
Hi Arlene,
As you start another week, I just pray that it will bring you even more strength
Still praying BY HIS STRIPES...Love Terry
Dear Arlene we are praying for you.Its difficult what you are going through.God has the the answers.I know you are hiding your soul in the cleft of THE ROCK.
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